Straight Up

    I've been rambling and rambling and babbling about. Everything. To myself and this computer, that is. Out there. I've only been saying enough to let everyone know that I'm alive. That's it. It's not me. This isn't me at all. I'm not being Frederik Attwood. I'm not being ME! I'm. In a new place right now and I don't like it. It's not that I can't handle change. I can, I can handle all around me that's changed. It's not the change I can't handle it's the. . . lack of you. I suppose. It's the false sense of fear I get that when I get back to being me and back home. you won't be there. It. Sucks. I have to go.

     I'm back and feeling much better. The glory of God is an amazing amazing thing. Today, something clicked inside of me and I don't know exactly what it was, all I know is that it was God. He did something amazing for me. He is. Breathtaking. So very breathtaking. I can't stop thinking about God. I can't stop thanking Him for all he has done. God loves me. Awesome isn't it? Indeed it is, I'll tell you straight up.

     I have yet to find the words. I'm sorry. So Sorry.