You're making me cry. I'm crying at this moment. Right now, I'm shedding tears. You keep reassuring me, but it's not really working. You've just informed me of something I previously didn't know about and I'll be honest, it kinda sucks. I thought that, since you loved me and junk, it wouldn't matter. I thought. . . that was my mistake I guess. I think to damn much. Please spare me the trouble of your words, girl. I don't need you at all, never have, never will. What we had, well your side of it at least, was always a lie, I can't believe you could try and tell me other wise now. I know everything, girl. I know where you were with him. I know who he was. I know exactly what happened.
Well it's your loss, I don't want your stupid friendship anyway. . . because that's all it is stupid, that's all you are, girl. Stupid. Why after all the crap we've been through together would you suddenly do this to me!? well I'm done, honestly, I'm totally just done with you. I quit. And if you ever talk to Jane again I'll freaking kill you. If you ever touch her again, If you ever look at her wrong. Yea, I hope you do read this, girl. You need to find out somehow that your life is on the line next time you pull crap like this.
I've stopped now. The crying has ceased. Just like my grandmother and you knew that and you took advantage of that and you made fun of me. What kind of a monster are you, girl!? That's my grandmother we're talking about here. Whatever, I forgot what I was about to say, that's how little you mean to me. screw you. And not in the good way.
:) I know what it's like. It's good to forgive, but sometimes you just can't continue the relationship. You have to let go... something I'm learning myself.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that you were having a rough time. But hopefully now you're immense amounts of better. :)
xx,
Bleah
I'm sure talking to Jane helps. :))) I know talking to me seems to help David and vice versa...
ReplyDeletepasts always do manage to sneak up on you, don't they?
drawing a line is good though, it scares what doesn't belong way. The past doesn't belong in your future -- unless it propels you to do better. It's only there for reference and wisdom, not to disturb things.
David and I have this problem alot... but he's a master at making things better. I'm so lucky to have him.
I'm sure Jane would say the same about you!
xx,
Bleah
Hey! This probably isn't the right post to make introductions or anything of the sort, but I guess it's good as any. I'm a Bleah follower :P she rocks tha's for sure, and I saw your comments on her blog and got kinda intrigued so I came over here and found your posts -- they're amazing & heartfelt. What you talk about is not something other people talk about...and I can relate in some ways -- I really like how it's heartfelt. I've never had a boyfriend, so I can't exactly relate in that way :P but I found reading your blog was awesome so I'm following :)
ReplyDeleteI know I'm like ten years late, but thank you so much :) You should help me get followers, I tend to, lack in that aspect, I'm kinda losing my will to write, but I think that if I knew people were watching it would make it better for me :)
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