retrospect

You're like little children with plain white sheets playing make believe and trying to scare me
But it all fails and without a solution we've moved on to our next big problem
I know, I know; I've got to put my head back on my shoulders. Maybe this time I'll do it right.
Or maybe this time you won't cut the yarn on my kite.

You swore this time we'd do it right, I swore you meant it and I thought it was plausible
The myth was busted once before, but we kept on repeating the same lame experiment
Without your comfort and without your gaze I've found myself in this dreadful haze
I'm missing your eyes and I'm thinking it's about time to start again.

Now we're both little children with plain white sheets,
playing make believe and oblivious to the world outside.
We've had no intrusions and we've moved on with our lives
I know you've found a place on my shoulders. Maybe this time, we'll do it right
Or maybe this time we won't have people who tell us it isn't right.

I swear this is what I want. Do you swear this is what you need?
I swear I love you. I swear I love you. I swear I love you.

I'm so sorry that my mind's uptight, it's worse for me, you see, it keeps me up at night.
I'm so afraid that I've lost my way to you who loves me.
I've lost my way to you, you who loved me.
And now so far from where my heart is, I have no home, no family and no friends.
It is only I, who once, I thought, hated you. And for that, I hate myself.