Now you've returned to me and I can't stop smiling. I don't know what to say. What to type. What to think. You have been thinking about our conversation for days though, I can tell. I can't begin to comprehend why you feel this me about me. Your every thought concerns me. I know because you've told me these things. You've let me see into your mind and you've told me what your thoughts are. I can't clear my mind enough. You're distracting to me and yet I can't seem to think of what to say about you. I've run out of words for you, Love. All I want to do is hold you now. All I want to do is kiss you and just. Do. Nothing.
I'm sorry I've run out of ways to tell you that I love you. I only know how to show you. I started doing that by starting this blog. It's only a matter of time before you... well. Actually I think I may hide this for a very long time. And for that I must say way in advance. In a few years when you read every single one of my posts I must apologize for my future self. I love you and I'm sorry. So Sorry.
.....maybe she'll find out sooner than later. But I suggest you tell her, soon... the longer you wait the more it'll hurt. And don't just tell her some silly way like through a text or online message. You need to tell her the truth with your voice, on the phone... maybe even in person if you have the chance. But you should tell her, because if you start hiding things from her now she'll always assume you're hiding things from her, and if you start lying to her now, even about tiny things, she'll always wonder if what you're saying is true or not.
ReplyDeleteBut I'm sure I can somewhat speak for her when I say, not matter how she reacts she loves you, and in the end all of these things you've said to her... these things that weren't meant for human eyes and were just your true honest, unfiltered, no pressure, thoughts... will mean the world to her.